Pretty Butterfly

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

so CEM presentation is over..
think the class did a good job.
smiling and luffing teachers=good grades?
wahaha...

butterfly fantasy at
12:49 AM

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Are You A Good Kisser?

Your Results:
Play-By-Play Lip LockerYou make an attentive kisser because you enjoy the melding of you and your partner's kissing style. Depending on the mood and the moment, you may be more adventurous or more soft and gentle. It may take you and your partner some time to really get down a compatible style, but once you do, kisses can become very intense because they are showing the deep connection you and your partner have with each other. Make sure to allow things to happen naturally rather than focusing so much on technique. Be confident in your skills and open to new styles of kissing.

butterfly fantasy at
8:26 PM

Monday, July 17, 2006

This will be a long long entry...
I saw his pic in friendster today.
Him, tt gal & tt bouquet of flowers.
For months, i haven been able to bring myself to view his profile.
I jus cant anticipate wat i will feel when i view their happy moments.
Today all i felt was 'hais..he's serious abt her' and tt's abt it.
So i guess.. its a good improvement rite?
But for two nite and days(since i nap), i have been dreaming of him too.
First time i was in a chalet with wei wei and friends, eating. Den my phone rang and the caller id said 'Derrick de mama'
I was like stunned can. Why would i have his good friend's no.?
Den i ans... and that gal was toking to him, not his good friend.
I was like cutting into their conversation.
Then i ask him why he called and he said, i think ur connection cut into ours.
I jus said 'ok, bye.'

Today i dreamt of him while i nap. But i forget wat i dreamt.
But also i dreamt of wei wei too.
It was two seperate dream.

Actually, mayb dreaming isnt tt impt since its not real.
What i feel now is more impt.
I noe tiong will no longer be in my life now.
And i noe wei wei is a part of my life.
But the differences between these two realationship is damn huge.
When i was with tiong, I gave everything..my heart & soul.
He was my everything. No matter wat others say, i simply shake it off.
With him, i feel i can do everything and anything.
But what happen in the end? He shattered me.
Completely lost myself in the process.

Then wei wei came along... haha.. a knight in shinning amour?
I started spending time with him.. den shifted my attention to him.
When i dun sms him, i feel weird. I started to rely on him alot.
Then, his ex-gf had a prob. He started avoiding me.
Guilty conscious? I duno.
So i gave him space.
Then when we went drinking one day...
the ex-gf, her aunt, her sis all came too.
Since i knew the ex-gf, of cos i toked to her.
She started asking qns... which i noe i cant gif her an honest ans.
So i avoided.. giving merely a reply. Then i left.
I jus took off without telling anyone.
Better to do tt den to lie rite?
When i left, i did msg wei wei to let him noe.
But no reply.
Was quite hurt at tt time.
Esp. when he tell mi how he went home with her after Kbox.
Ok, that was den.
Now.. he tells me he had already put her behind.
But even as he say that, he created a folder to put her text msg.
Then one sat, he told me he deleted that folder le..
Bu zhi bu jue.. wo men hao xiang zai yi qi le..
Nth was cfm..
But you see... he was hurt once, I was hurt once.
Im not prepared to give everything.
He doesnt seem prepared too.
So wat the hell are we doing?
I understand the fact that if you noe you cant continue doin sumthing,
dun ever start it.
But why am i still doin things that i know i cant continue for long?
Everytime i go or leave his place, everytime i go hm alone..
I got this feeling.
why?
I dun think i can be his pillar of support.. when im falling dwn myself.
It's not tt he's greedy. But he needs sum1 to be there for him after wat happen the last time.
And the prob is I need a pillar too. Sum1 that can oways be there for me, tell me things will be fine and take my tempers when im stressed-out..

When 2 ppl get tgt, there's this honeymoon period rite?
How come i dun feel it?
When we go out tgt, we dun even hold hands..
we are jus like 2 friends going out.
Its not that i wanna take things fast, but well.. when u r not even sure...
and the guy doesnt assure you.
Negative thoughts will appear rite?

Really hope i will get a clearer situation about this mess..
Wish me luck ya...

butterfly fantasy at
8:46 PM

Saturday, July 15, 2006

When do u really realise you are really letting go?
By allowing someone else in?
Or is it the time you no longer think abt it?
What if all is jus a illusion?
What if everything repeats itself?
Do you dare to take the chance?

butterfly fantasy at
10:49 AM